Mirror Mirror

It’s always wonderful to focus on God (You are so full of surprises and wonder, Lord).   He Himself is beyond marvelous to gaze upon and enjoy! In sitting with Him and His word there is always something in me that gets adjusted.  I am so thankful to have more freedom from some things that have held me in deep bondage.  And, I would not even have known they were there but for God’s goodness to me.

I have never wanted to become embroiled in the “man vs. woman” battle.  It’s just wrong for so many reasons and degrading and dishonoring to both men and women.  It is the enemy’s best weapon upon the body of Christ and I’m not up for giving any ground to him!  I’ve wanted to distance myself from even talking about it, but not God! Nope!  And, He’s very persistent when He wants something – ever notice that? Haha! Well, it may take time, but it’s always better when I go His way on things (it’s best when it’s sooner and rather than later!).

There have been times I have been so saddened and so disappointed.  When both men and women dishonor, insult and out and out tear each other up – it hurts my heart.  The lengths fear goes to are immeasurable.  I’ve said it before and will repeat – I am not a feminist.  I don’t believe in holding one’s sex as superior and the other’s subordinate.  I believe men and women are Co-heirs, equals –we are both made in the image of God and bring equally unique and required design features to working together in God's Kingdom. "There is neither Jew nor Gentile, neither slave nor free, nor is there male and female, for you are all one in Christ Jesus." And God made us to work together – “It is not good that man should be alone”.  We were created to live out dominion over the earth in unity and mutual relationship and submission to God and each other.  Men’s roles do not exclusively assign them authority over women.  Women’s roles do not exclusively assign them this either.  Each has particular design that when rightly lived out together with mutual respect and love, magnify God. Ultimately – that’s the point – glorifying GOD!  Where God is displayed rightly – I see both men and women in all levels of leadership and in marriage in mutual submission to God and each other and living out the fullness of their complete calling in Christ! There is more fullness of this unfolding in the earth!  

There may be many who disagree with me.  I’ve gone into all the scriptural study and information about this in other posts regarding some sources of my understanding (See: What if…?, What’s Shame Got to do with it?, Ah-Ha! Women and Men in Kingdom Relationship, The Genders (another clue) and The Genders).  Good thing, you don’t have to agree with me for me to love you.  And, really, that completely frees me.  Its part of what I had broken off of me! GOO-OOD!  I am free to love people who despise, distrust, hate, fear and loathe me and all I stand for (and that’s not just those who believe it's their job to dictate what's right for the opposite sex but also staunch anti-theists, racists, and boatloads of others)  YAY!  Their treatment of me does not in any way bind or obligate me to treat them as anything but people who God deeply loves and therefore who I really love. They can’t force me to see them in any other way.  It wasn’t always so, but it is more and more NOW – thank you, God!

You see the mirror – it reflects exactly what it’s aimed at.  I have been unjustly the object of contempt over long periods of time.  When first exposed to this I was deeply hurt and lived in a toxic pressure-cooker mix every day for several years.  I took it very personally and did a lot of crying out to God. I wrote a little previously about how I asked if He wanted me to leave the situation and He firmly told me NO! There are only two options when undergoing such things – you’re either gonna get bitter or better.  As I kept going to God – He kept putting me back on track and training my eyes on His truths instead and in the midst.  And guess what?  He showed me some of the ugliest most horrifying and disappointing things about me inside me! YIKES! Yep, it’s true.  Rude things. Truly humiliating. I had no awareness about them.  He showed me, pride, hatred, rage and fear, rescuing for acceptance, masks of perfection - uck! Then, he gave me a safe place and people to be real with about those things – while completely being accepted. He brought me through - as I kept coming to Him - into a willingness to lay down things. In the process, He taught me how to see those who had contempt for me with different eyes.  He showed me that other people are put in my life to show me those things in me that have to go.  AND He proved He is my defender!!  I could not lift a finger to save myself or defend in any way. HE HIMSELF showed He is for me and provided for my every need. He’s my Daddy, the wonderful Papa who protects and provides for His little girl! I catch Him on days still doing that and I always look at people trying to mess with me and think – “You don’t know my Daddy, do you?!” :D  And He actually went further and changed the whole atmosphere and situation to greatly bless me in completely extravagant ways (financially, honor, respect and acceptance)!  I actually went from pain filled crying to joy filled crying in overwhelmed thankfulness.  I was not expecting that, but more astonishing I was not expecting my vision and understanding of who God is personally for me to expand so dramatically.  I am ever falling down grateful to Him for making me to know Him better.  It’s the cry of my heart to know Him more. His faithfulness, commitment and love are far more personal than I could have ever imagined, for me.  Knowing that affects completely how I trust Him, walk with Him and obey Him.  God’s growing me and this is a life long process.  Like the mirror – I reflect what I’m aimed at.  And, like a mirror – I reflect much more truly when I’m clean (God is ever cleansing me from distortion, dirt and gunk!).  When I aim at hate and resentment that's aimed at me – I reflect it.  But God’s taught me, whatever is coming at me I can aim myself at Him and I will reflect Him.  In this process anything in me that prevents His complete reflection from shinning out is exposed – and believe me, though it’s painful it is the best thing that can happen!  Here in this place when I humble myself and stay real I become my true self as he cleanses me from those things that are not the real me.  And, miraculously, when I reflect Him to situations and individuals – HE changes things!  Sheesh – ONLY HE CAN DO THIS!

I have not always been quick to embrace going God’s way in this.  Initially, I did not do it at all and tried to protect me.  But, over time – God re-enforced in me laying down fleshly responses (even when they are trying to smack me in the face) and living from my real joyful love centered self in Him. And wow – me living that way completely changes the world around me.  Who knew? And hey, God's not satisfied that we just be good at this - He's bound determined to make us great at this actually - perfect in Him! So, I get a whole new set of things to practice practice practice the truth of this out in!  YIPPEE!  What an "over the top" life knowing my Daddy's always committed to helping me grow to reflect Him better.

So, mirror mirror  – who are you reflecting?

Resonate

It's been some years I've been yearning for worship to be more than singing about God's greatness.  I've felt more and more how important it is to resonate with God in worship.  The only pure and true worship we can give to God is when we are in complete unity and alignment with Him.  Not speaking, singing or serving at Him or toward Him, but in Him and Him through us.

Every time I've come to a place that embraces worship as speaking/singing/interacting directly to and with God, I've felt I'm home.  It's such a wonderful place and so familiar.  When songs are sung to Him intimately and not just about Him.  When my heart can lift up His greatness as already being present and not just future, not for what will be alone, but for what is!  I love and long for that state always - the state of awareness at whole new levels of His presence.

It's funny, people think I'm a little strange, but every day songs on the radio turn into worship songs to God when I'm in my car driving down the street and changing the words to sing to Him.  Everything belongs to Jesus and I love making them His in every way.  It brings me such joy and floods my heart with love for Him afresh.  I never want to just sing songs the same old way - I want every anthem fresh for His ears - to His heart alone!  When I sing with others - I want His heart to hear my unity with them from my unity in Him.

It's awareness of Him that is all that is lacking.  His presence is always here, always heaven is open.  I do not have to request He come - I just revel that He is always here.  I have the great joy of newness to my eyesight of Him almost daily.  His presence becomes more and more clear to my awareness.  This is what the Bride is growing in - seeing the beloved.  The beloved in our midst - we do not need to request He come or heaven come down.  He is here!  Heaven is here!  He dwells in us!  We welcome you Yeshua!!

How blessed we are to belong to You, God.  How wonderful to grow in knowing You.  I will never tire of growing in this and learning ways to discover Your presence anew.

There are many who resonate in this time.  We make the sound which comes from You in us.  It changes us in the process and the world around us.  It shakes the status quo and changes atmospheres. What an awesome opportunity and privilege!!  Help us to be aware of You more, God and respond, resonate in You!  Pour out your life through me, God - let me live for you alone!